One Step Forward, Two Steps Back

A few weeks ago, I mentioned I was experiencing minor health issues. In a break from my usually upbeat and energetic posts, I thought I’d share what’s going on in my world. I know I’m not the only one suffering from digestive disorders and it’s been helpful to hear others’ stories.

On May 9, I had an upper endoscopy which showed I have gastritis and esophagitis (inflammation in both my stomach and esophagus). The biopsy showed the harmful, ulcer-causing bacteria wasn’t present so the course of treatment has been Prilosec and a bland diet. Fifteen days prior to this, I had already been on a bland diet and taking Nexium at the advice of my primary care physician.

It’s been over a month and every day continues to be a struggle. I’m terrified every time I eat. I’ve been living off of bagels, plain pasta, Gatorade and popsicles. There have been a few times I’ve ventured outside the norm and I usually end up paying for it the following days. Every time I think I’m getting better, I’m knocked back down.

Adding to my frustration is the fact I recently eliminated a lot of the gluten and highly-processed carbohydrates I consumed in the past. And now? The only thing I’m eating are those highly-processed carbohydrates. I know there are worse health issues out there, but not having an answer as to what caused this and when it will get better is enough to make me want to scream.

I recently began adding my normal barre3 classes into the mix and that’s helped restore a little bit of my sanity. I feel better knowing I’m making my body stronger in at least one way, and the studio time provides me a place to forget about the outside world for an hour.

I have a follow-up appointment next week to hopefully get a better idea of additional treatment and ways to help my stomach heal. If any of you have had digestive disorders or experience with a bland diet, I’d love any recipe or food ideas. Fingers are crossed for next week!

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Happy Birthday, Rob!

Today is my husband’s 28th birthday. I wanted to take a moment to reflect on how lucky I feel to have such a supportive, loving and funny guy in my life. I love this picture from our wedding day because it captures the excitement and joy I was feeling then, and still feel now.
HappyBirthdayRobI got up extra early to write a Pinterest-inspired “Happy Birthday” message on the mirror in dry erase marker (although I’m almost positive it ended up looking more like a ransom note). We left the house extra early to enjoy breakfast before work at Tasi, one of our favorite breakfast spots in the Short North. Tonight we’re heading to the Columbus Clippers game with a group of friends, and will continue the celebration with family this weekend in Youngstown.

I won’t get too sappy, but I do want to wish my perfect person the best birthday yet! I’m looking forward to celebrating many more.

May Resolution: Pray

May’s resolution came at a very appropriate time. Recently I’ve felt a little beaten down. Turning on the news is enough to make you believe the world is going a little crazy. Pair that with the minor health issues I’ve been experiencing and it’s been a painful few weeks. I’ve had a hard time doing just about anything (eating, sleeping, exercising, working, etc…) 

I have felt completely helpless. A little more faith is exactly what I need. Actually heading to church to pray on Sundays is one thing, but my May resolution will extend beyond that. I want it to touch every part of my life throughout the week.

I’m going to focus on letting go of anxieties and the things I can’t change. I need to accept and trust that the world works in mysterious ways that I may not understand right now. While it will be important to pray on things that I don’t have any power over, it will be equally important to give thanks for all the good in my life. And there’s a lot of it!

I always immediately try to fix anything that’s wrong (with me or otherwise). I think that I possess the power to stop the bad things from happening and make everything better. You can imagine this doesn’t always work out in my favor, which has been especially evident recently. My goal is to become more aware of letting go of the things I can’t change. I’m going to accept the fact that maybe I can’t feel okay all the time, and that placing my faith somewhere outside of myself is okay. And sometimes, necessary.